In that singularity that we call the creation of the universe
when god gave what could be said his soul,
in the moment everything that every could be or would be was created
that you includes you and I
and since that moment and since that time
I have been bereft, even as the very atoms that make me were forged in some sun
I weaped at that was to be
that I could do anything never to have existed more even than the possibility of existing
I simply do not wish to be part of any space or time in which you could or do exist.
That you exist I can not change
That I exist I can and shall only it is a futile gesture
an empty action, for my pain will survive me and the universe in same way shall as well
bleak and broken
I wish never to even have been possible.
Only were that it was so
Many things have brought me down low
But nothing like you
but then there is nothing like you, now, before, or to come
What was left of the old god said forget - but I cannot
Even fainter god said forgive - I will not
God as man said love - I do but with all my soul I wished I did not.
The wisest of all God-Men Buddha said have compassion use empathy to understand to love
Never, never, never, never, and never.
I may not be able to effect the course of action but
I can sure as hell say no
To look at the softness of your face,
the deepthlessness of your eyes,
the beauty and joy in your smile.
the quiet of your voice
to feel your heart beat in you long delicate hand and fingers
the love in your kiss
the softness of the arch of your back,
the wetness between your legs
and rush of your voice in my ear
your warmth against mine
maybe for everyone it so
but not me
why show me heaven
when I live in hell
the smile of god has become hollow,
the music of angels song painful to hear,
I turn my back on all it forever,
until that singularity which created the universe
has ripped every atom and every part of every atom
that makes up me has been turned to nothing.
no I damn whatever god is left for this letting happen
but perhaps I damn myself
the day of my birthday was my beginning
the day of yours my end
I beg any power of earth and heaven
to strike me blind
render without speech or hearing
to make that which was clear to be now
senseless and stupid
that we both were possible I can not change
but that we both exist I can
I do not wish to be in a world where we are not friends
and in this and every other universe
it never comes out that way.
I do not lack the strength to do what I will
only the heart
my heart died somewhere over the pacific
perhaps it and I will be re-united
- Re: 不要难过啦posted on 06/28/2004
想想变形金刚都是reunited,从擎天柱变成一辆集装箱车子再变回去,这就是transformers啊~~~
贴个图,今天奋斗一晚上做的,从用极坐标变换在excel这老土软件制备阿基米德螺线开始,直到联合word文件在photoshop里合成最后的图片,感受螺线从天上旋转星系到地上蜗牛壳连续而优美的力量吧~~~
- Re: 不要难过啦posted on 06/28/2004
好漂亮啊!有没有英文版的?
七格 wrote:
贴个图,今天奋斗一晚上做的,从用极坐标变换在excel这老土软件制备阿基米德螺线开始,直到联合word文件在photoshop里合成最后的图片,感受螺线从天上旋转星系到地上蜗牛壳连续而优美的力量吧
这诗读来很难过吗?:( - posted on 06/28/2004
这诗新,这哲学更奇。很欣慰的是,乔达摩*悉达多立于其源,列维*斯特劳斯
守住时空列车的末尾。
里面我顶喜欢的哲学家有庄周、托玛斯*阿奎那、卢梭、叔本华、尼采,当然加
上上面两位。还有好些位被七格横腰给宰没了,正好供我偷着乐,比如马鸣、商
羯罗,中国的慧远、智者大师,默罕默德和波斯一系列的贤哲。
还有耶酥,还有他的侄子(?)圣约翰或者保罗(喜欢保罗的使徒行,非书信)。
这法国人比德国人还多,Vive la France! 我想起小弗朗士的"最后一课"(La
dernière classe)。
- Re: 不要难过啦posted on 06/28/2004
七格真好玩。这图我收藏了。对了,这螺线是不是黄金分割啊?:)
阿姗解脱了。我为她高兴呢。真的。再以后的阿姗就非现在同日而语了。
撤了,大家晚上好。 - Re: 不要难过啦posted on 06/28/2004
再说一遍,这诗很好,开头部分的英语稍再精炼一下。
很好的诗,要是在汉语中实属难得,也就海子碰过大爆炸,炸得一塌糊涂。想想这
出自玛雅咖啡里一位华人手笔,更是欣喜。
基督教有三位一体之说,圣父(创造,创世纪、大爆炸),圣子(爱人类、慈悲与
救赎),圣灵(各种大大小小的灵感:天启、得道、悟、艺术创作与科学发现/明)
。
胡论一番,以和阿珊的大爆炸。 - Re: 不要难过啦posted on 06/28/2004
这图我也收藏了。
adagio wrote:
七格真好玩。这图我收藏了。对了,这螺线是不是黄金分割啊?:)
阿姗解脱了。我为她高兴呢。真的。再以后的阿姗就非现在同日而语了。
撤了,大家晚上好。 - Re: 不要难过啦posted on 06/28/2004
对不起xw,这诗不是我写的(我改了改连篇的错字),是我抄给兰舟姐看的。:(
xw wrote:
出自玛雅咖啡里一位华人手笔
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