- I kind of lost my way also lately... Feeling doing something real crazy. Perhaps one shouldn't overanalyze why she wants certain things. Maybe we should act like a kid: I want it, so I am going to get it one way or another.
One thing I need to warn myself: when I am at a thredshold or a crossroad or a tipping point or whatever, I would suddenly fall into some sort of addiction, something that I normally wouldn't pay much attention to but now suddenly feel crazy about, like politics, computer games, junk news on the internet, etc. I guess it helps me to divert my attention away from what I really want but what scares the hell out of me. But the temporary relief only brings depression and self-loath later on. That becomes a constant battle inside me because the "I" inside me can always find some really creative ways to block anything I'd like to achieve.
Anyhoo, I plan to transfer 14 credits from college to meet the natural science/maths/computer requirements, but I'd like to earn the rest.
Add oil add oil to you too.
阿姗 wrote:
Susan wrote:I missed the application deadline for international students (this is the time when I wish I had a green card, after 15 years living in the US). So I am going to apply for the winter term which starts January. I think I have a mid-life crisis everyday for the last 15 years. I was so jazzed up for music school and for marriage and all that, then I read this book which seemed to have solved the "why we have music" problem I wanted to work on and felt I had lost a direction.... and forgot why I wanted a steady and stable relationship....
Hey 阿姗, are you going to Music school this fall?
I am going to take classes from community college next semester. I can only take 1 class per semester so I need 3 years to get an associate degree and 5 more year to get the BA. Then it will be about the right time for me to have a mid-life crisis and I will go get my master. :-)
Fortunately I remember this trick: when I am down and have lost my way, act as if I am still up and know the way, because soon I will come out of the valley and be able to see the world again. So I will just keep doing the things I remember is good for me.
Susan, can you transfer your college credits from previous programs? Uusually you don't need to take all undergrad classes. Only need the majors. Add oil.
p.s. My math-logic-philosophy-yoga friend just graduated from the cop academy.
Susan